That's What You Think

55. After one year split he knows I love him and I know he loves me. What are you waiting for?

54. i hate my life.

53. I feel unwanted. They don’t accept me for me.

52. They think I’m gay. I’m perfectly sane. And heterosexual. God. And some lesbian stalker won’t stop pledging her undying love for me. How desperate can you get? Please world, leave me alone.

51. Its not my fault ):

50. i hate you. :)

49. If only you knew how I feel about you right now. I have no idea why I feel a little envious inside whenever you talk about other girls. You’re just my best friend. I’m afraid that I’ll lose you to another girl. And you’ll like her personality more than mine. I think I’m falling for you, again.

48. I will miss everything about you.

The way you wink at me when our eyes make contact. The way you make fun of the way I say “hello”. The way you make me have butterflies in my stomach by just walking in front of me in the school hallway. The times you would interrupt my sleep-til-12-noon-Saturdays by calling me. The times I will wait for you to call me in the middle of the night when I’m alone at home.

But sadly everything has changed now, you told me to forget about you. I don’t know why, and you won’t tell me why. I told my friends that I didn’t love you anymore cause I wanted to be alone for awhile. But deep inside I knew myself that I still love you. Don’t leave me hanging on like this.

What’s weird is, this is the hardest breakup I’ve been through, but we weren’t even together. I need you, A I.

47. You’ll always be on my radar.

Yes. I admit. I catch myself looking at you, and yes, it hurts when I see you with someone else, and when you smile, I find myself holding a breath. I find myself longing for every conversation with you, find myself just dying to have you say hello.

And yet, I can never have you. You think that I like another guy, I never did. Admittedly, I liked him a few months ago. But he was my friend for like 6 years, and I only liked him a bit. I’ve known you for 9 months, and I’ve fallen hard and fast for you. You don’t know how it feels, hearing your snide jokes about how me and him should get hitched, it really fucking hurts. :’(

My friends think that you’re treating me unfairly. If you were any normal guy, I would have got over you in about a week, but you aren’t like they all. You stare at me, and when I catch your gaze, I stare back, and yet, you’d look down quickly. My best friend said, when I was ill right in the middle of class, you were the one who gazed at me the longest. Only when I was out of the room, only you would direct your gaze somewhere else.

Please. I really want what she said come true. I want you, and you only. I know, I sound like some teenage girl in some stupid fazed puppy love, but it’s definitely not how it feels. I’ve been in puppy love before, and this feels different. And recently, you gaze at me more often.

I have no idea, whether it’s surprise/anger or something else. I remember, in English, when I just peeked at you, you stared back at me with those eyes, that spoke calm, yet meant another thing. I’d quickly look down, and act like I was looking at something else. And my heart would bang mercilessly down my chest, and I’d have to swallow hard to calm myself.

I’ve only been in love with you for 3 months, yet it feels like a year. Like Vila said, she loathes good looking people, because they have their happy endings with the guys they love. I agree, because happy endings never ever did come to me. As much as I believe it to. It doesn’t.

When the last period of class on Friday ended, it was after school. I went to homeroom, and my locker, to clear my books. And you were the only one in the room, I try to act like my heart wasn’t beating around 100,000 beats per minute. Then, other stupid people entered the room, and totally broke our wall of privacy. You’ve no idea how much it hurts.

I really love you. I really do.

Yet, you don’t know anything. That’s how much this sucks.

46. People think that I like A, but I have always liked S. Admittedly, I used to flirt with B a lot, but now, my best friend likes B. And I flirt with A sometimes too, but he’s a playboy, and I don’t have the feelings that I have towards S. I really love you, S.

45. i’ve loved you for seven years

44. I like my guy best friend. He likes my girl best friend. I feel extremely jealous.

43. i don’t think this is a ‘misunderstood’ problem, but i just have to get it off my chest, ‘cause it’s been bothering me a lot. i have this really strong feeling that my mom is cheating on my dad and it’s really messing me up. i can’t stand it. i feel like i’m drifting away from my mom bit by bit because of it, eventhough i love her to death.

42. You’ve been reported to the FBI. This is a legitimate message. Don’t ignore it.

41. I feel like I should restart my entire life, or just end it.